Beware of the Ides of March! Anyone who has read Julius Caesar is very familiar with the Ides of March and the assassination of Julius Caesar in 44 BC. So it has become common to warn others of the Ides of March (those who back stabbed Julius). So here is your friendly warning.
I have a busy day filled with getting my INR checked because that is important, I mean we need to make sure it’s within range, when I was in the ER I was at 2.0. Then I am getting my knee re-checked by the orthopedic doctor. I am hoping he will agree we need to just keep with the physical therapy, my knee is better. I need some more time. I need to keep working with the physical therapist to keep strengthening the knee.
There is a time for surgery and a time for physical therapy and I really feel like we have made real progress with the physical therapy and so I want to keep going. I want to give it some more time and see if we can get it back to where it needs to be or close to it. The bad part about today is NO COFFEE. I had to think twice this morning because making coffee is part of the routine and I went to make it and then NOPE! I couldn’t make it. I am going to enjoy my coffee on Thursday I am going to sip it slowly and remember how warm and comforting my coffee is, and how much I appreciate being able to drink coffee!
I did not miss having to go through all this cardiac testing..I did not miss it ONE BIT!! UGH! I do not want to think about the next step because I remember the next step, I remember how I have to lay still. I don’t like to be still like EVER! It will be okay because at least this go round I KNOW what I am in for, the first time I was scared because I did not know what they would be doing, this time I do. I know what the tests are like, what they feel like, what to expect and what we are going to find. There is great comfort in knowing I am going to FAIL these tests! I know it sounds odd that I know I am going to fail these tests and I am so calm about failing them, but I’ve failed them every other time. So why study?
So I got a call from the doctor’s office about the blood work. So let’s re-cap really quick what the 3 ideas were about the Yeti in the tub were
Blood thinner/Medication Side effect
So the doctor was leaning towards option 1 I was leaning towards option 2.
I have a thyroid condition that I am familiar with because my sister Karen had it. The condition is called Hashimoto’s Disease. You can read about it here. My sister had Hashimoto’s disease. She had to take medication for it, have her labs checked. I have to have my labs checked again in 3 months, but as of right now my thyroid has not been compromised which is good. I will say the news hit me like a ton of bricks. I was hoping I was wrong I really was because somehow hearing that the medication was to blame was going to be easier to handle. Hearing that my body is attacking itself is a lot harder somehow.
I do know that God is still in control and all is well. This might be a shock to me right now, but I am a fighter and I will keep on keepin’ on!
I went to the doctor for the hair loss situation. I told him about what was going on basically we have 3 ideas
Medication side effect from the blood thinner
Thyroid problem or other metabolic cause
Alex I’ll take I don’t really like any of those options for 200…. So he ordered lab work and I got blood drawn this morning to check for cause 2. He thinks it might be cause 1 which the obvious choice would be to take me off the blood thinner (and put me on a different one) except that I have to have surgery this year and I’m not sure my surgeon would go for a different choice. So we wait to see what the blood work shows and then we decide the next step in the game. In April will be 6 months which I might be able to come off the blood thinner depending on what the tests shows as far as the blood clot is concerned. I’m hoping that I do come off the blood thinner because I’m tired of taking it.
I was talking to a friend who has MS he said to me aren’t you tired of taking meds because of the side effects of drugs? You are taking this drug and it’s making your hair fall out, you take this med and then it causes your potassium to be leeched so you have to take potassium supplements. When does it stop? I feel where he is coming from because there are so many people in that position. They have to take medications to combat the side effects of the medications.
INR was 2.4!! WOOT! WOOT! Let’s party up in here! I was uber excited about that one. I saw my buddy which when I gave him a very enthusastic hello, one of the other patients laughed and goes I guess you like to give him a hard time, to which I batted my eyes and go “Who, me?? Nooooooo” and laughed. Then I told him my story and said that my buddy has been there since the beginning he got to hear the WHOLE deal, so yes I tease him a bit, but I like to bring a little joy everywhere I go. Then the guy told me that he agreed that the only reason I survived my blood clot was that God needs me here still, which I am in total agreement with, so I’ve decided that I must be on some secret mission for God. Yup I am God’s 007, just waiting to find out what the mission is and while I wait I am going to continue to bring joy, happiness and lots of LOVE to everyone.
I was talking to my Dad about all the hate in the world right now especially towards Muslims and how it hurts my heart. I really do believe that God wants us to love each other. When the disciples ask Jesus what the greatest commandment is this is what Matthew 22:36-40 says
36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”
37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[a]38 This is the first and greatest commandment.39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[b]40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”
I think we forget that we are supposed to love each other. I think it was very telling that Pope Francis recently told all members of the Catholic Church not to try to convert those of the Jewish faith. Jesus was Jewish. He was a Jewish carpenter in the very beginning. I understand fear, and I understand the primal instinct of fight or flight. I get that, I understand we want to protect ourselves, but spewing hate is not going to protect us. Spewing hate is going to tell others that being hateful is okay and more hate is going to be produced and is going to create an atmosphere of fear and hate.
So before saying something mean stop take a deep breath and think is it really necessary to say this?
So most people have heard of the saying “beware of the Ides of March” you know when Julius Caesar was killed by his so called friends. Well the Ides of March happens on March 15th. Well apparently my body has something against the 16th of the month because on October 16th is when my blood clot decided it wanted to try and kill me. I survived! Then early this morning at 1am I woke up with incredibly chest pain. I woke Jenna up and told her my chest hurt. She was just about to call 911 for me when it stopped. I just looked at her and said it stopped. It doesn’t hurt anymore. So she asked if I wanted to go to the ER, so I asked her to go get the pulse ox meter to check my oxygen level and heart rate. We check everything is normal. So I told her since I felt normal I didn’t want to go to the ER.
I do have a doctor’s appointment today to be checked out because we have a feeling the blood clot shifted and that’s why I had the chest pain. I have decided that it’s November 16th so I might have to come up with my own name like the Ides of March. I am just taking life one day at a time. We’ll see what the doctor says because I am not a doctor, I don’t even play one on TV. I get my blood checked again on Wednesday, but I was within levels last week. One day at a time baby!
So you know how people will use some excuse for like weeks, well last night my wife is like you are going to use your blood clot for everything right? And I go maybe. Like sorry I couldn’t polish the sliver you know you I have this blood clot….I was going to fold laundry but I have this blood clot. I would have read that book, but you know I have this blood clot…..So of course she goes wait…you can’t read because you have a blood clot? Sure why not!
I’m just being silly of course! I am not happy that I got a blood clot, but now that I have the blood clot I gotta make the best of it! I’m taking the medicines, I’m going to the appointments. A lot changes are being made and my leg is getting weaker and I’m learning how to walk with a cane. Which I don’t like, but I’m keeping a comedic attitude and smiling and laughing, but not too much because you know I have this blood clot! Actually laughing too hard is hard on my lungs. Sometimes you just have to laugh.
So in the last year I’ve lost 53.8lbs. I’ve been working very hard at losing weight and keeping it off. So this morning I put on this blue shirt that my Mom bought me as a birthday shirt, the problem with said shirt is that it’s now about 3 sizes too big for me. So I said to Mom that I am swimming in my shirt, she laughed and told me she agreed. But I LOVE MY SHIRT!! I know it’s just a shirt, but it’s PRETTY! I should put it in the pile for giveaway send it to a new home, and release it into the universe for a new woman to enjoy. Maybe after it goes in the washer I will release it because after looking at myself in the mirror today I realized that I really need to put it in the donation pile. It’s a beautiful shirt, but it’s time in my collection is over.
I went to the back surgeon today and my x-rays looked good. I went to the clinic and got my blood tested and my INR was still within level at 2.0 but just barely. So I got some work there, but I got this.
One more doctor visit to go this week. I have just the clinic visit next week so far, not sure what I am going to do with myself when I don’t have a doctor’s appt, I mean it seems like I’ve been seeing 2 doctors a week since I’ve gotten out of the hospital.
I’m also going to start working on that comedy routine, one day I’ll perform!