Moving in general sucks, but not being able to help with the moving really sucks. This is the first time that I have moved since being injured. I keep being reminded of how little I can do. I can’t pack because that involves bending, lifting, squatting, or a long list of movements that I physically cannot perform right now. Then I am reminded that when we are actually moving I won’t be able to help there either because oh yeah I can’t lift anything…so yeah…. But I am able to supervise and help with the massive purging that we are doing before we move.
I also got the results back on my genetic testing. So I do NOT have Factor V Leiden which is what my specialists thought I had. I do have a genetic mutation that can cause blood clotting. But it’s a lesser known one. I am also fortunate enough to have 2 variations of the gene..yeah you know me the overachiever! So the hematologist is going to be doing more testing on me when I go back next year to check some other things. This does make me happy that we did the testing. I think knowing that extra piece of the puzzle.
I am starting to feel empowered getting one more piece to a possible one million…one billion..maybe even one trillion piece puzzle! I mean every test that brings us closer to figuring out what the answer is, how we can prevent another incident like last year would be great. I really don’t want another massive blood clot, however my story has helped three people very near and dear to me seek medical help for what they thought were blood clots in their legs. All three times it was cellulitis in varying degrees but in two of the cases the people almost lost their legs to the infection. In one case the person went to the ER because of my story they feared it was a blood clot and they knew how deadly they are and went verses waiting for a doctor’s appointment.
If one person can be saved from my experience then my story, my experience then I feel like I have contributed. Sure I would have rather NOT gone through an almost deadly saddle pulmonary embolism, but I can’t change the past. I can however use my experience, strength and hope to help others!
So I got my blood drawn this week for genetic testing for genetic clotting disorders. My doctors believe I have Factor V Leiden. I was tested for several others, but that is the one that they believe I have. I am the one who pushed to be tested. I know this might sound strange to some people, but I am at this point where I just want to know.
Last year’s events changed our lives forever. There is nothing we can do to go back in time and change what happened. My clotting risk went up as soon as I had that saddle pulmonary embolism. I have been working on reducing my risk for a 2nd clot, but I want to know if there is a possible genetic factor we need to be aware of when we are making medical decisions.
Every medical decision is about pros and cons, weighing the positive outcomes against the risks. We know that when it comes to making medical decisions for me we roll the dice. We don’t know what will happen because I’ve had complications, I’ve had unfavorable outcomes, but I’m here. I am alive and walking and here. I take each day with the Grace of God and the joy in my heart. I know how lucky I am to smell the roses and see the sun rise and the sun set. I know how important it is to tell the people around you that you love them. You have today. You have no idea what tomorrow will bring so stop thinking about it. Live in today, live in the present.
The morning of my massive blood clot I made the wifey breakfast in bed and I have not done that in the last year. There is a psychological reason. For a long time we could not bring ourselves to have ham and eggs (which is what I made that morning) because we were instantly brought back to that morning and the fear we felt. Wifey asked if now that it’s been a year if she can have breakfast in bed again..I told her I’d think about it. I honestly hadn’t realized it. It was just something I had stopped doing subconsciously.
There are things in life we can control and there are things we cannot. I cannot control my genetics. They were born with me. There are other things that I can control like my diet the foods that I eat, and the amount of sunlight that I get each day, etc. I am focused on controlling what I can and accepting life on life’s terms. So no matter what the tests results show I am at peace. Nothing has changed inside of me. I am the same person I was yesterday, and I will continue to be the same person tomorrow. This just gives us one more piece of that 1,000 piece puzzle….well with me maybe it’s 5,000….